Do you believe that you are flawed or broken because of your (seemingly) unending struggles with food, eating, and body image?

If so, know that you are not alone. 

It is important to me that you know that there is deep meaning behind your struggles, and that there is nothing wrong with you. You are not crazy or broken. You never have been.

Trust me on this. I say this from my own hard-earned experience.

I wrote this poem to help you understand what I mean.

May you feel seen, held, and understood by these words. May they nourish you, and help you meet yourself with more compassion and understanding.

A poem: There is nothing wrong with you

It is not eating or your weight that you fear
or are seeking to control…
Its your feelings.

Painful feelings
around being different and wanting a sense of belonging.

Painful feelings
around being unsafe and wanting a sense of protection and security.

These feelings feel
unpleasant and intense; you do not know what to do with them.

You fear they would
destroy you or hurt someone else if you expressed them.

So, you keep your truth inside,
and avoid the discomfort by under-eating or overeating.

You bury your longings,
and distract yourself by controlling your weight,
innocently believing that weight loss would be the solution to your misery.

When the truth feels too heavy to bear, 
you bend over the toilet seat, 
and let the truth pour out of your being.

You over-exert yourself through movement,
and release what’s held within.

Suddenly, you find yourself back at square one, 
desperately seeking control  
over food and your body.

So you conclude, 
and say to yourself,
with great conviction, 
“There must be something wrong with me”

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