Have any of these thoughts ever occurred to you?
If so, I’ll like to congratulate you, because this is a sign that you are stepping outside of your comfort zone and trying something new.
These are extremely common and understandable fears on the path of recovery. So know that this is part of the process, and there is nothing wrong with you for feeling this way.
Now…wait a sec… where do these fears actually come from?
In short, these fears are a direct consequence of malnutrition and prolonged dieting.
Following rigid food rules around eating (aka dieting) causes you to disconnect from your hunger and satiety cues. You give your power to someone outside, and you begin to alienate yourself from your body. With time, such eating patterns create disturbances not only to the body but the mind also.
To overcome these fears, you must learn to trust your body and mind again by re-engaging in the process of nourishing yourself with food. The uncertainty, fear, and discomfort you will encounter along the way, is not a sign that you have failed, but a sure indicator that you are on the path, and you are changing, you are feeling, and you are healing.
Know that you can always trust your body, no matter how unfamiliar or scary this may sound to you. Your body is your friend, your only home.
It will take time and practice to develop an accurate perception of your hunger and satiety cues, and to eat according to what feels good, and is satisfying for you.
Reconnecting and listening to your needs is hard work, especially if you’ve learned that it is safer to bury them.
Imagine what life would be like if you could live in harmony with your body, and turn to it as a source of guidance?
Imagine what life would be like if you could satisfy and nourish yourself with what you truly wanted to eat, instead of what you think you should eat?
This is freedom, and freedom is possible.
I am cheering you on my dears.
And as always, remember to be kind and patient with yourself as you go along. Everyone is on their own timeline, so try your best not to compare yourself to anyone else. Your journey is unique and precious to you.